I'm Ready To Be New Again

 

<font size=4 color=blue>these are the bands/people that i want to meet.</font>

 

<font size=3 color=purple>#1:Manchester Orchestra<br></font>
<img src="http://www.livethescene.com/videos/manchester_orchestra_2.jpg"><br><br>
<font size=1 color=yellow>Note: I love these kids, I always have and always will. They have dragged me through hell and revived me. They are basically all I have, at the end of the day, when everything seems against me, there they are just waiting for me to listen. I have seen them live twice[in the same yaer] and still have yet to meet them =/. but one day I will, and it will be worth it.</font>
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<font size=3 color=purple>#2: Paramore<br></font>
<img src-"http://www.planet.com.mm/instant/photos/September08/paramore2.jpg"><br><br>
<font size=1 color=yellow>Note: These kids neve cease to amaze me. Brand New Eyes impressed the shit out of me, and also made me connect with them on a much higher level than ever before. I've seen them only once.</font>
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<font size=3 color=purple>#3:NeverShoutNever<br></font>
<img src="http://www.mtv.com/shared/promoimages/bands/n/never_shout_never/photos/flipbook_52009/cr_brian_appio/01.jpg"><br><br>
<font size=1 color=yellow>Note: Not only is this man very handsome, I'm sure he has lots of wisdom and talent stored up in him, just ready to burst out.</font>
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<font size=3 color=purple>#4: Between the Trees<br></font>
<img src="http://images.starpulse.com/Photos/Previews/Between-the-Trees-u01.jpg"><br><br>
<font size=1 color=yellow>Note: Today is the first time I have ever listened to them, and I fell in love.</font>
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Everyday is the same here. Everything, everyone is the same. Nothing ever changes. I wish it was different, but we're all stuck in a rut. There is no such thing as individuality, everyone wears the same clothes depending on where they are going and their gender. All the houses are the same size and color and materials. The skyscrapers all have fifty floors. All the schools have three floors. All the hospitals have eight floors. There are no hotels, since no one in their right mind would ever want to come here. No museums, no such thing as music except for the humming in my head or the noise of the busy city. Although our town is of pretty good size, everyone knows everyone, so we can never make mistakes, or we will look foolish. Women don't work, and girls don't go to school. Why cant we all be equal? Julie, my next door neighbor who is three years younger than me is also way smarter, she says her mother has been teaching her on the side. Where her mother got her information, I don't know. But she must be a good teacher. My family moved here twelve years ago, when I was four. Sophie, my little sister, who is only nine, will probably never know what it is to live outside of this city. Mom said it would be a good idea, and I couldn't protest, I was too young. Dad left when Sophie was six, he said he couldn't take the difference. He always felt that something was missing when we came here. He said that he felt like he lost something. I know what he means, I just don't know what it is that's missing.

"Ben? Is that you?" my mom asks from the kitchen.

"Of course mom, who else is it supposed to be?" she doesn't answer. Oh joy, after school. All that means is dinner, homework, then go to sleep. "Is dinner almost ready?" I change the subject.

"Another twenty minutes." I practically run up the stairs. Once in my room, I go to my closet where my stolen machine lies. The computer I stole four months ago from my school, its only a laptop so it didn't take much effort. I had figured it out the first month, but soon after that I had to do more with it. I knew it could do so much more. There was all these outlets in the back of it, empty ones, they had to connect to something. I also figured out how to get rid of the tracking system that the school had installed, that was the easy part. The hardest was trying to figure out what the rest of it could do. I wanted so much to ask Julie, but she was so little, she would snitch in a second if she ever knew, and plus even if I spoke one thought about it, it would travel across this town in about thirty seconds. Then everyone would know, and who knows what would happen to me then, no one knows what happens to the ones who disobeyed.

"Ben! Ben? Dinner is ready!"

I sigh, shut off my beautiful machine, and head down the stairs to the dinning room. "Looks great mom." I say, no enthusiasm added. I sit down, looking at the stream of steam coming off of my plate.

Blood boils over the stove at high temps
As I sit and wait for it to end
I hope it comes on subtle
But I doubt it.
I've been anticipating this for the longest time
I knew this day would come.
Where would I be next year?
Where would you be next year?
So much I have to fix
Yet so little time.
Can I make the transition?
What's better, analog or digital?
With analog, you get the past, ever so rough around the edges but in the middle its smoothed out.
With digital, who knows.
Everyone would like to know the future, would like to have certain things happen.
But will they?
Have things ever completely worked out the way you wanted them?
What makes you so sure?
Your confidence makes me nervous.
Will you ever be able to do all the things that you've promised?

Taking Back Sunday- "New Again"

After the departure of long time friend and brother Fred(you spell his last name). They had to find another back vocalist and lead guitar. His name is,  Matt Fazzi.
With this they made New Again, its been 3 years since their last CD Louder Now, which was really good. But can New Again live up to its ancestor?
My Opinion: Yes. i have heard live versions of New Again, and I cant even begin to tell you how excited I am. This is just amazing. I noticed as I grow up so does their music, its an appreciation thing I guess.

 

No Doubt

Thier return wasnt much of a suprise, well to me. I have heard so many times that they were getting back together. Although I wasnt completely torn to see them go. Still like them though, they better not let their old selves down, cause then the would let me down, and probably the rest of you who loved them.

 

Blink 182

I really didnt see this one coming. For years now we've heard RUMORS of them coming back and so many times over our dreams were shot down. But fret no more darlings our heroes are back. I hope to whatever greater power there is, that they will make music together like they used to, and forever, I never want them to get old, i want them to stay 20-whatever forever to keep making the silly anthems that filled our summer radios and filled our eyes with tears as we listen to the ballads. I want to love them as I did when i was younger, I want to go back to the way it was.
I remember the day I heard they had broken up, I was in middle school in the library on one of the school's computers, trying my best to refrain myself from bursting out in tears.
I also remember the day I found out that they were back together. It was one day after they had anounced it and I saw it on here and I read it without beliving my eyes, and there came the few ears of joy, theres only one time I had cried of joy and that was when Fast Times At Barrington High( The Academy Is...) came out. I've never gotten a chance to see blink 182,I was to young when they broke up. Thank you for giving me and a ton of others the chance to finally see you.
We Love you forever!

Another good one lost

As you’re no where to be found

Time slips by

I know you’re not coming back

They say you left on vacation

But I know the truth

It’s forever

Maybe I shouldn’t have came

Because then it wouldn’t have to be forever

We could have lived like the fairy tales do

Happily ever after

But there’s no turning back now

Forever is set in stone

The sky is ice frozen as I wait for her call.
Its been three days since she said she would.
Although she said that work would give her hell this week.
I can probably guess where all her free time is going.
Down the drain with him, or so I say.
Please not this again.
I’ve had enough.
I’m here too.
Or am I?
Next year I’m going to have to be my own Super Hero.
And with this, the last year that we will actually be able to do stuff together as much as I would like, she’s with him, again, like always.
Don’t tell me I’m wrong, because I know.
Its an old routine that gets sickening.
If only she knew how much I miss her.
But its only been three days.
And here I go.
Back into the rut I call my life.
With everybody passing me by again.
As if I’m frozen.
Just like the sky above.

 

 

 

Inspiration: Winter Passing-TAI (get why only two things are capitalized now? except for the "I" of course.)

 

 

 

 

 

Ok i have a HUGE problem with these, dont know much about them but i tell you the ones i know, and if i'm wrong, tell me! And im not going to talk about "Vote For This Adds" those are a different story.

Verizon Wireless.
You know how they say that they have "the best network service" stuff?? and the guy says"Can you hear me now???....Good!" and their newst "Dead Zone" commercials...
I have had verison a while back and they were crap!!! There was barely any service 10 feet from my house, and i live in the city..
Now you may be say, well that was "a while back..."  Well let me tell you this.
Last week my friends BF didnt call her...what happend????
His cell didnt have any service..guess who his carrier is..VERIzON.
So they are ICK!

 

Vonage Phone Company.
If you havent heard Vonage uses your internet connection.
Lately they have this add that say that they are better than Quest, but let me adk you this Vonage.
How are people going to use your phone company when most homes have a cox or quest internet hookup?? Why would we get rid of one thing when we could do 2 things at one time?
AND you dont even offer a internet hook up, how do expect people to have a internet hookup on their own??

 

Thats all i have for today, i'm going to have a question up soon that i dont know the answer to , post there please!!!!

Argue/Agree/Discuss!!!

ok i dont care if this is old news or whatever, im just saying.

 

Miley Cyrus
A lot of you, im sure, have either seen or heard about most of her "racey" photos. "FANS" of hers say that she is just a teenager and to let her live.
Well let me tell you that she chose this life. If she wanted to raunch about, taking racey photos, maybe she shouldnt have signed to DISNEY. I mean little children look up to her, does she not think of her fans, because that's exactly the message I'm getting when she does shit like that.
Actually i think her whole Hannah Montana show is stupid. It teached kids that its ok to be something you're not, and thats just wrong.

 

Katy Perry
I actually like Katy Perry if you didnt know. I did not watch her at Warped.
DJRossstar recently put up a blog about her smash, "I Kissed A Girl" and quoted her mother, and I've got something to say about that.
First if you dont like that kind of "talk" why are you listening to the radio anyways?? 'Cause im 99.9% sure that you heard it on a top 40 station or whatever and things on there arent always so pretty sounding. And why did you even pick out that song? I mean listen to "UR So Gay" and you'll here more if what you "love". (or some other songs from her)
If you dont like it then change the channel bitch.
If my parents said anything like that to me, they wont see a penny from me, I dont care whether they put me on this world, if they dont like what I chose to do with my career then they dont know me and therefore are nobody who i want to know.
Good thing she's not signed to DISNEY...right??

 

Fight/Agree/Discuss!!

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i think its funny the way my mind comes up with random yet awesome quotes, the most amazing one i have cinjurered up lately::

We all wish to be free as birds, because then and only then can we see.
Inspiration???::
I Can Barely Breathe- Manchester Orchestra
A part of Glory where where Shaw looks out to sea to see birds flying.

Meaning???:::
To be free as birds = to know yourself in and out, to represent who you are to others and never hold back.
because then and only then can we see = after doing the above everything will be clear, everything that you want and everything that you are missing and everything that you need you will know.

i cant remember some i ve thought of this week.

my tiredness as reduced now, i would have been with HER at 7 today if i only had a ride.
i was going to go visit Umbrella today, but i forgot my journal, i know i need to go back their soon, i have to relive those times to soar free like the birds, to finally see.

it is literally making me cry right now.
the only musicians who have ever accomplished that is Manchester Orchestra, and they WERE my #1
now TAI is.
They themselves have "leaked" it on to their myspace, its all there, full length, everything
go listen.
but i have to warn you, if youre a BIG fan, you'll be either be blown away or dissapointed depending on your self.
after reading Beckett's brand new blog for Thursday this record hits him right on the nose, at least i think so.
this record is FINALLY the real, free TAI
i am completely excited :]

alright so i said i would update after about a week of school so here it goes.

Monday, Aug 4th:: I get there, im late and its complete chaos. people getting schedules. Icant find 1st worth a shit, then they tell me its in a whole different building, stupid asses. I go to 2,3,&&4 th period then lunch. I spend half of it with friends then i go to the counseling office and try to get me next period fixed, they dont do that until about half was through that. On this day nothing feels right, it feels like im not supposed to be in school, it doesnt even feel right at lunch to be with my friends. I go home.

Tuesday, Aug 5th:: In classes things start off. 1st period is notes and nothing else and me and Liz just talk. (we're ok now :]). In 2nd me and sam think our math teacher is strange, and i know that she will never take control of our class, (we've been together for about 1-2 years now, everybody knows everybody in there practically) we get HW. 3rd is boring. At lunch i still dont feel all there. 5th...she talks waaay tooo much, and i dont mind that if its interesting , but its not so i almost fall asleep. then 7th then i go home.

Wednessday, Aug 6th:: 1st is the same. In 2nd the teacher says "together" oddly and me and my friend, Sam , are the only onees to catch it, so e bust out laughing and everyone is like WTF guys? lol. 3rd is ehhh. we had HW in 4th. lunch, i still dont feel there. 6th  is still boring. 7th he assigns us to read the whole 1st chapter. I go home.

Thursday, Aug 7th:: 1 is the same. 2 me and my friend Sam do some random things && Chickens Cancel Out On Thursdays. 3rd we finally go into our actuall classroom. 4th new seating, i sit with Amberlina my favorie person of my 1st grade year. lunch, i still dont feel the same. 5th is boring. 7th we do this measuring the sun thing that no one gets. The bell rings, i go home.

Friday, Aug 8th:: 1st the same. 2nd Sam doodles Alice in wonder land (i put a mullet on everything) cartoon && Her Homologous Shirt On Fridays. 3rd i fucking rock that keyboard, its nwever felt an orgasm like that before ;] ( i mean i playted really awesomely i thought). 4th we talked about the 6 essays we have due the next 6 weeks, fantastic. lunch is ok, not at all how i expected to be, i talked to my wifeey. 6th we did emergency shit, btw that class is spanish and we still never learned the ABC's. 7th we did some shit that i dont get, i want to switch to Chemestry, but "my hero" is in there. im walking down Central Ave and see JOBO, which means its a good day.
guess what??
i gott a few more school supplies, meddds(im a bit sick) and best thing of new headphones. which ppl are like you call that a good day?? but i only saw JOBO for like 2 secs so for that long yes sir.

i wish he still went to Central because everyone and everything would be ok again.

&hearts; WE MISS YOU JOBO!!!

 

you make me feel so helpless, suffocating in my humble surroundings, as you kill me and yourself slowly.
im not surprised that youre sick all the time.
do you not care that everytime you do this i get sick, i cant go to school, it hurts.
do you realize that everytime you do this i feel like you dont care, you dont care that i cant breathe, that you and i both are dying.
i have too much ahead of me, i need to live to see at least 30.
thats as much time im giving me to live my dreams. to do everything that i ever wanted to do, how do you know that i will not change the world so it can be its best?
everytime you do this thats what its telling me, its telling me that you dont believe in me, that i have no future, that im worth as much as that thick white air that you breathe.
and evertime you light up i remember how poor of a father you are to me.
i remember how much i hate you.
many kids all over the world wish and pray everyday that they had a father, but me, i would rather you gone.

you tell me your mistakes so that i will never make them, but you kow what? youre wasting your breath. theres no way in hell that i will make the mistakes you had made.
give me more credit, im smarter than that.
do you not believe my mother raised me correctly.
let me make my own mistakes, at least i know they wont be as bad as yours.
the most horrible thing that i can do that you havent is kill and i can and will only do that for one living person.

you say that no one can know unconditional love, but i guess im special right?
youre not, you dont love me unconditionaly, you have high expectations for me and low standards for your self, what kind of role model is that?
becaause youre wrong, i do love unconditionaly, but only to one person, i know that seems odd but she's the only person that i could love that much and im not sure why.
shes just herself, i know now, after everything we have ever been threw, that that will never change.
shes more than i had expected for a best friend shes more than any greatness i know.
shes the only person that i have not had a fight with, was dissapointed with, and that loves me and everybody else for who they are and not what they have done.

have i ever told you that whatever i write always comes back to you?
 

blogs.

i kinda notcied how i have many blogs, not that anybody reads them lol.

but i dunnnnooo

thats just me i gather.

uhhhhmmmm, i have another profile that will be finished in a few, i think. not anytime soon.

im going to have to get all settled innn.

if you dont know, school for me starts in 2 days.

i hope to make that better than last year, i guess we'll see what happends on Monday right?

well until then.

peace :]

 

The Acdemy Is... has released a brand new song off of their well awaited album Fast Times At Barrington High called About A Girl.
they have played this song on warped tour as far as i know and if you havent noticed they have taken the opening and put it in their latest episode of TAI TV[[#7]].
It is now on itunes and their myspace if you have not heard it yet.
&& like all TAI fans, i cannot wait until the release, which is scheduled for August 19, 2008.

...and it's your fault
everything you do
everything you say.
makes me who i am today.
im selfish? im heartless?
no. thats who i use to be.

everybody is human.
therefore everbody is selfish.

heartless.
i dont think so.
thats taking it too far now.

would i die for someone? Yes.
would i kill for someone, knowing the consequences? Yes.
would i jump off a building after someone? lol Yes.
do i help everybody? No, probably not, i dont.

if you gave me a reason not to, then i wont do it? is that heartless?
some say yes.
but i believe its not. its not my fault i have high expectations, i never found a way to get rid of them.
if i love you do i forgive you? Yes, easily.

maybe i dont help you because i cant.
have you ever thought of that?
im not that special.
but i thought since i once called you my best friend you wouldint get all pissy when i dont.

you say youve known me for a long time.
is that suppossed to mean you know me?
my closest friends dont even know me.
yet theres one that knows what im passionate about.
and that Yashia and shes only known me through the internet for about 2 years.
and youve known me for five and dont know me at all.

i care about stuff.sure i do.
if i didnt i would say say 'get lost' to the "monster". .
if i didnt care about anything, would i have tried so hard to get to warped tour? would i have waited and waited for the academy is.. just to sign my stupid ass ticket?
if i didnt care about anything i would have given up on everything i believe in  about 5 months ago, i would have given up on life.
and for your information
I HAVENT.

 

 

 

the conversation that inspired me[[ i am sony pony and the one that has known me for 5 years is lizzo dizzo]]:

 

L!ZZO D!ZZO just sent you a nudge.

 

You have just sent a nudge.

 

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

im boooooooooooooooored

Sony Pony says:

my pic is better!!!

Sony Pony says:

im sorry

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

oh w.e, paris is so much better then that

Sony Pony says:

psssh nothing is better than TAI

Sony Pony says:

youre a loser

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

mhmmmmm sure. your just jealous cause you havent been there

Sony Pony says:

youre just jealous cuz you havent seen TAI live like have =P and you never will!

Sony Pony says:

i have*

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

mhmmm sure. never say never

Sony Pony says:

no cuz you'll never be that close to the stage

Sony Pony says:

so yea i'll say never

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol shut up sonya. your a bunch of talk thats it

Sony Pony says:

no i know you liz you dont go that close to the stage

Sony Pony says:

i know you

Sony Pony says:

and i was

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol ok sonya. no need to brag that anyone can do

Sony Pony says:

yea but YOU cant and will not do it so there

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol ok sonya. you keep thinking that, like i said your all talk so hardy har har

Sony Pony says:

w/e liz you wouldnt go to a stage 20mins before just to get close

Sony Pony says:

k?

Sony Pony says:

k.

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol like you really know me that well. just shut your mouth hun cause its all talk

Sony Pony says:

no it isnt cuz you know that if you go up that close you wouldnt see shit cuz youre too short

 

You have just sent a nudge.

 

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

your talking hullabaloo

Sony Pony says:

no liz, youve said it before

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol uh huh sure. where is your head at? if your closer you can see better. thats common sense

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

DUH

Sony Pony says:

no becasue it isnt not in a pit

Sony Pony says:

if youre right on the gate you can see but i was 2 rows back

Sony Pony says:

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol just shut up. your not gonna win, your not cool so whatevaaaaa

Sony Pony says:

w/e you chose the kid/a job over seeing the mmost amazing band to live yet

Sony Pony says:

so who is laammmmeeee here liz?

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol ok i dont really care. theres gonna be plenty of times i can see them. so its ok plussssssssss im getting paid and your still living off your parents money

Sony Pony says:

lol thats cuz id rather not waste my energy at a stupid ass job when i can just mooch off my parents

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol $20 is not that much too mooch off hun when ill be making 500 dollars a pay check.

Sony Pony says:

dude i didnt mooch off $20 K?? i muched off $70

Sony Pony says:

so i beat your ass in that department

Sony Pony says:

and at least i didnt fail my drivers permit like 3 times!!

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol oh thats really something to be proud about. im still make 6 times that amount

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

i didnt fail it 2 twice duh.

Sony Pony says:

yea you make that so you can see a stupid ass loser who clearly doesnt give a fuck about you or else you wouldnt get so mad or sad at least once a week

Sony Pony says:

about him

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol ok at least i have a significant other, not like some people over here.

Sony Pony says:

Sony Pony says:

i dont need one, you showed that to me

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

you dont need one cause you dont really care about anyone but yourself and thats not a good quality to have cause in the end youll just be lonely

Sony Pony says:

i dont just care about myself. and i dont seee how you could make that ASSuption

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol ok sonya. your heartless when it comes to peoples feelings so either way you still think about yourself more then others

Sony Pony says:

actually liz im not and the only reason why i dont give a fuck about you and the kid is because i told you to leave him and you didnt listen or give me a good reason to not say that

Sony Pony says:

so if you didnt take my advice than thats your own damn fault

Sony Pony says:

k?

Sony Pony says:

then*

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol either way you really show you care for your friends. so another around of applause for you

Sony Pony says:

that was the most suckiest sarcasim ive ever seen. and i do care for my friend more then you would ever know

Sony Pony says:

than*

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

mhmmm you really show it sonya but ok you can keep thinking that

Sony Pony says:

how that fuck do you even know if i show it when you dont even see that much anymore liz?? how the fuck can you say that name one time that youve seen it?

Sony Pony says:

me that*

Sony Pony says:

name one time where i appeared heartless

Sony Pony says:

one time that doesnt invleve you

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol oh many times

Sony Pony says:

cuz then and only then can you this

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

your a girl that gives about everyone and everything

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

a fuck*

Sony Pony says:

then how can you call that heartless??

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

you have many qualities that show it

Sony Pony says:

like what?

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol oh come on sonya you know you are so theres no need to say it

Sony Pony says:

i asked you to give me one time liz thats all , that doesnt involve you and you cant even do that, why do you go and say shitt when you cant even bak it up

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol cause its true if you asked anyone about it at school theyll tell you yes

Sony Pony says:

like who?

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

anyone in class can tell you.

Sony Pony says:

what class??

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

any

Sony Pony says:

if anyone cannn tell how come you cant?

Sony Pony says:

me*

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

i just told you!

Sony Pony says:

no liz you didnt you said anybody could tell me

Sony Pony says:

thats not giving me shit

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

just ask away and theyll tell you sonya

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

you know you are so i dont know why your trying to cover it up

Sony Pony says:

im not exactly trying to cover it up im just asking you to give me an instance where or when you saw this

Sony Pony says:

i dont really see how hard that is

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

when it comes to someone feelings you could give a rats ass

Sony Pony says:

when?

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

my example. when i try to tell you shit you could care less which still makes you a bad friend

Sony Pony says:

no because when you didnt take my advice or give me a good ass reason to not leave him that told me that you dont really need me at aall liz so that why i dont care when you tell me shit, cuz you dont care what i have to say in return

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

you still help a person out not be a complete asshole about it

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

who the fuck does that

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

you have to be caring not shove it in a persons face

Sony Pony says:

why should i help you when i alreasy tried and you threw it in the gutter?? why should i waste my energy and whats left of my heart and my mind to try to help you when you dont give me a good reason to?

Sony Pony says:

already*

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol cause when a friend is at need you help them and not through it in their face and walk away. not really nice to do

Sony Pony says:

you dont think i know that??? but dont you get it???why should i when you never gave me a reason to. like let me give you an example. when silvia wfirst got with gereal my friends went crazy but i talked to her and asked her why she was with him when all i hear is shitt about him, and you know cuz you hear shitt about him too, but she talked to me about it and why and i let it go and gave him a

Sony Pony says:

second chance

Sony Pony says:

you just need to show me why give him and your problems with him another chance cuz really liz i dont see anything that would make me believe that he deserves you

Sony Pony says:

now try calling that heartless hmm?

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

lol ok sonya. either way you know you are, ive known you pretty long enough to know how you are. you really dont care much about anything or anyone

Sony Pony says:

ok liz w/re

L!ZZO D!ZZO says:

w/e im not gonna waste my time on a arguement
   [[lizzo dizzo signed off]]

Sony Pony says:

i was nt arguing with you anymore dunce

Sony Pony says:

and you already wasted time on it

Sony Pony says:

lol lame

we have fights all the time.
but im thinking this one might have been that big one.
dont feel bad though.
with all the friends that i have none of them argue with me at all except for me and this one.

and reading this more makes me believe i dont need her.

 

 

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we're ok now...

Is it too easy to figure out that its not that easy to tell.

Is this just nonsense??
Why do we put up with this? Not knowing whats going to happen, not knowing whats going on.
Wouldn’t you like to know the future.
Know what kind of mistakes youre going to make.

Know when and why youre going to make them.
Most of us don’t even know why we do half of the things that we do.
Is that wrong.

But if it is then what is right.
Because we don’t know any other way but to do some things unconsciously.
Is that not how our brains work.

Not letting us know what it is doing.
Did the government corrupt us like it has everything else.
Or maybe it’s the record labels, those demonic songs.
That take over our whole selves until we fall.
But where do we fall.
Where do we land.
Or are we still falling.
Is that life.
Is that all we ever do is fall.
How many times do we actually get up.
And take a chance just to fall again.
Should we take a chance.

A chance on love.

Is love worth falling over.

Is love worth fighting for.

Do any of us know that answer.
Of course at first we will say yes but as we are buried alive in the strife we doubt.
We doubt love.
We doubt falling for it.
We doubt fighting for it.
But is our purpose falling for love.
What is our purpose.

What is purpose.

Why does life seem like it has so much meaning.

And yet we don’t even know why we fall.
Why we fight.
What our purpose is.
Is it worth it at all.

 

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.

 

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

 

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

 

4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

 

5.

 

Put this on your journal

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1.

If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Ain't No Reason-Brett Dennen

2.

 

How would you describe yourself?
We're All To Blame- Sum41

3.

 

What do you like in a guy/girl?
The Rock Show-blink 182   (me and sammi both got blink182 =] )

4.

 

How do you feel today?
Miles Apart-Yellowcard

5.

 

What is your life's purpose?
Feeling This- Blink182   (wooooooooooooooooooow!! lmao!)

 

6.

 

What is your motto?
XO-Fall Out Boy

7.

 

What do your friends think of you?
Daisy- The Silent Comedy

8.

 

What do you think of your parents?
If You Wanted A Song Written About You, All You Had To Do Was Ask- Mayday Parade    (holy shit thats a lonnnng title)

9.

 

What do you think about very often?
Time Wont Let Me Go- The Bravery

10.

 

What is 2 + 2?
Watch Me Bleed- Scary Kids Scaring Kids

11.

 

What do you think of your best friend?
Things I'll Never Say-Avril Lavigne   (lol...we're married its kewl)

12.

 

What do you think of the person you like?
Sleeping With Giants(Lifetime)-The Academy Is...

 

13.

 

What is your life story?
Hurt-Johny Cash

14.

 

What do you want to be when you grow up?
The Take Over, The Breaks Over- Fall Out Boy

15.

 

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Always Love-Nada Surf

16.

 

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Im Not Okay(I Promise)-My Chemical Romance

17.

 

What will they play at your funeral?
Island In The Sun- Weezer

18.

 

What is your hobby/interest?
The Game-Action Action

19.

 

What is your biggest fear?
Sugar,We're Going Down-Fall Out Boy

20.

 

What is your biggest secret?
Evil-Interpol

21.

 

What do you think of your friends?
Naked-Avril Lavigne    (LOL)

22.

 

What will you post this as?
Mama-My Chemical Romance

Her & Them are my favorite people, i love Her & Them ever so much, but do Her & Them love me?

 

i met Her last year, Her pretty much saved me from myself.
but Her has someone new Her never sees me anymore and i never see Her
though i did see Her today(5-6-08), but that was because The Thing wasnt there, Her loves the thing. does Her love me?

Them. ive known Them for almost 2 years now. me and Them are having a hard time right now. i met Them on an orange land where the "Almighty King" practically ruled all. i saved Yhem from Them self. but Them did something so horrible, something that i shouldnt forgive, but i love Them, im not sure why yet, but i just cant let go of Them. does Them love me?

 

this has been the question ive been asking myself for the past few months. but i cant answer them if im not really talking to Her or Them.
i see Her almost everyday and everyday if i think about mine and Her's situation i break, i fall apart.
if i think about mine and Them's situation i get frustrated.

I Love Her & Them!!
But Do they Love ME?

things are looking up for me, or are they looking down, i just dont know anymore. somedays it feels like im letting it all slip away and others, i know im grasping on with my dear life.
but what do they expect, most days im trapped, in what seems like an alternate reality. i never seen this coming, i never thought that anything would turn out this way. i've only got one thing left and thats music:
i got a music MS but i havent really posted anything yet, so i havent added anybody yet, right now i just got to end or fix the thing i started
i'll manage my posts later.

if i were your best friend why would you lie to me for about....2 years?
if i was your best friend why did you underestimate my smartness, my ability to notice things around me?
huney, its not that complicated
so dont go telling me that you couldnt think of anything to say because your "best friend" was mad at you
if i were your best friend, you would have thought of a thound things to say to me.

so dont go telling me what you could and could not do because of my frustration
because i know what a best friend is
ive got one and recently, i was a bit pissed at her, but she kept asking why, she wanted to know,she cared and still does, and because she asked and because she cared, we got threw it.

you,you never considered me a best friend,not for one second